the empty refrigerator
choking on my own money
I awaken Saturday when it gets dark
Shabbos is over
we are now at Matzeh Shabbos
there is no havdalah tonight
no regret at the end of
Shabbos BO 5754
which will never come again
I do not even think
of preparing myself
for Saturday night sex and drugs
much less Pesach
two months away somewhere
after the coming of Purim
which we are taught will survive
even the coming of Meschiach
a point of theoretical interest
which completely eludes me
for the time being
how do we recover or rather
rediscover all that was lost
in the flames and gas of fifty years ago
and is this the night
to start
looking for it
and if not now when
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